There has been some media coverage about the Fatshsion and plus size women lately. There was an article in The Times in the UK this week, an article in Women's Weekly Mag and the first female centerfold in this months Australian Cleo, is a plus sized model (I actually purchased a Cleo this month because of this. Something I haven't done in nearly 10 years, and obviously there is still a long way to go in the movement, I mean even though they have a plus size model, they still have an article titled the 10-second flat tummy tuck, and pages full of thin models). Over the last few months, my eyes
have really been opened to changing the current beauty standards, about being healthy at every size and being
happy with what you've got. And, since I started loving my body, and I quit
dieting, I've never been happier.
Now, I’m not saying that people who diet are wrong, not at
all, if it works for you, great! But, perfection does not exist And
perfection does not exist because EVERYONE is beautiful. No matter what they
body size, colour or sex. I’m not saying that being thin is wrong, I’m just
saying that it’s not for me.
At the beginning of last year, I made a pact to myself that
I was going to lose something ridiculous like 35 kilos. I developed what I now
realise was a pretty bad eating disorder because of this. In hindsight, I now
know that I was practically starving myself, and it would get to the point that
I was so hungry, and depressed, that I would binge. I would eat until I made
myself sick. Then the guilt spiral would start all over again. I’d feel guilty
about eating so much food, that I would start starving myself again. Now, of
course I never got anywhere being on a diet, because I like to eat. I like
food. Since I've sworn on dieting, a lot has changed for me. I don’t feel
guilty about eating. I eat what I want, when I want. And, because I don’t have
this looming diet cloud over my head all the time saying ‘are you sure you want
to eat that’ I don’t feel guilty. And because I don’t feel guilty, I don’t
binge. I am actually eating better now, than I ever have. My view to food has
changed, something switched for me. I used to eat as much bad stuff as I could,
when I could (read: when I was on my own and no one could judge me) because I
knew that I wasn't ‘allowed’ to eat it. Now, if I want fast food, I’ll eat it. That doesn't mean I eat it every day, I don’t, but if I’m on my way to work and I
feel like a sausage muffin, I’m going to
stop and get one. I've even stopped having coffee every day. Not because I don’t
like it, but because I don’t feel obligated to have one. I don’t feel obligated
about anything regarding food any longer, and I’m much healthier, and better
for it.
I've found a wonderful online community of body positive women. Women who have changed my view on life. Women who embrace what they
have. Women who are fighting to be the change they want to see in the world.
And this has been a monumental thing for me to discover. It’s changed my life.
Now, I've never really cared what people think of me as a
person, but I certainly cared about what people thought about my body. I don’t
anymore. I wore a bodycon skirt on Monday. And I rocked it. I’m wearing
hemlines above the knee. I’m buying clothes that fit the body I have, instead
of the body I used to want. And it’s fantastic to know that I can pull anything
out of my wardrobe and know that it will fit me. I've purged every single
ill-fitting item of clothing from my life. And it’s a wonderful feeling.
So, now I love my body. I love every wobble, and curve.
Because no one, no one, should be made to feel like they aren't beautiful in the
body they are in. Because self-love is so important. Because you CAN be healthy
at ANY size. Because beauty standards should be changed.
And this is why I chose to love my body instead of hate it.
Also, thanks to my dad for snapping these quick shots of me last night! This has become one of my new favorite outfits!
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